Who am I?

Well we can cross off Jackie Chan from the list ( unless of course your parents named you ... Just that) When one experiences the newbie state [the first time]  
you may find your self Loosing more than one many "identities" 
you have always known your self to be Respect from people who you yourself respected 
on some level and cared for And their change of behaviors towards one self Change in others attitudes, usually result from 
following life changes in life:
Surviving break down in relationships Surviving in emotional crisis Transition from college to work place to retirement Transitions from ill health and back wellness no longer living up to the perceived perceptions of you. These people Who are family, friends even authority figures  
on some Level valued your opinions,  
may have done completely entire U turn in this…
can be quite self defeating. whose opinion either boosted your self confidence 
and re affirmed your identities This state of shock ! 
Can be, for some of you , 
like having the rugged being pulled from under you Learning to fail is an art, 
[To treat this awesome failure as a stage and not end of road] Side mutterings: -
if I messed about letters of my real name 
'fail' is word that come up
should I take that as universal sign, 
and than take it to heart  
and than be miserable? 
hell no
so how I do reshuffle the letters 
to humour and boost self esteem ? 
I look across full spectrum of languages and take nothing but the best
In my quest along these lines found that first two letters ‘fa’ [can’t remember how] in Chinese language means ‘heart‘. and that was just the beginning Interpretation of failure ‘the right way‘ is going to an 'important skill' to learn and re-adapt many times over,
avoid generalising from a single incident in any arena of life As newbies , 
man we can be masters at highlighting failures, 
but.. yes and yes there is always a butt ( somewhere). Learning from this type of perceived failure can 
indeed be a revelation To navigate successfully 
through this ‘testing period of lost identities .’ It is probably long over due and the first time,
that you explore more consciously "self acceptance" you will need to redefine "self acceptance" Towards Yourself that is not reliant on others:
feelings , words or behavior. 
that you may have been using as a measuring tape 
thus defining your self Regardless
Keep your relationships with others 'in good shape', your newbie state was equal shock to family and friends.

They too needed time to adjust,
and time; to time to be reminded/ indeed reprimanded 
(tactfully to more forcefully ) on perceived / actual misconducts
and in reversal being too touchy .. ouch One of few times I have endeavored to talk about it
to a sibling of mine, not sure quite how it happen ,
always come back to how it was for the sibling … 
well that was tough for me listen to... repeatedly 
Wish for /pause /mute button sometimes Let go of confirmations from others and instead focus on you Create your own barometer of standards, to assess your self by. Some newbies: stick to religion as glue 
others sod it , others still think they heard God 
{uhh Best to drown that one in rock music} the fourth makes me raise an eye brow to covert to something, [Than again I do come in the 'sod it' category] However The power of faith that is grounded, that practically empowers one from within; oneself.. can only be good Entirely your call. It often pays to give attention to / reclaim 
and reflect upon 
not only on achievements of the past , 
no matter how great and small, 
but also upon physical, emotional , mental  
and the [more sensitive newbies] psychic boundaries 
that not only need to be defined but maintained, 
refer back note: art of timeliness ...
and understand and calculate biorhythms Cycles
physical, emotional , mental peaks 
[some sites / app may include psychic which is usually 40 days ]
And go forward with these as your initiating platform.

as for who you are... allow sweet time to play its role  
to even create what you will be made off.
and that does not mean burning candle at both ends.


laters fuzzy

Finding Incentive... Persevere

Some newbies like my self may come in the category of too much time on their hands, which is entirely up to you, to do, what you see fit.

That easily be squandered in over sleeping , my favorite
mind level blowing  hours in playing computer games
guilty as charged did play bejewelled 6-8 hours straight,
think my mouse been um over worked,  so is not as satisfying as it use to be.









Some of you, do more or less may begin a project

and initiate quite well ,
but may  find or loose motivation to complete  or follow through,
so never *get back*, the taste of satisfaction of things done well.

Which indeed at times question one capabilities
And relaying false perception of yourself.

How to counter balance? 

you really do need to re-educate  or
take second glance and what it is knew / were taught than and
know;  now how to  re-apply

the following  underlined excerpt taken from

Success your way why you’re meant to  by g. Richard  shell,

[refer to other pre…innovative writing blog
 on note “stepping up motivation” for image of the book,
don’t roll over yourselves with the other book image that’s there]

Making yourself accountable- social accountability

Friends and family,
or good start evaluation how day spent  and than allocating time
that is constructive to than  after to do  more chilled out activities

Connect with role models

this might be bit hard harsh as some / few of our famous outshining counterparts
over dose or top themselves L
Am one of them people who don’t read obituaries
Did Winston Churchill in English class, yep put me off for life,
do recall  the distinguished pompous gentleman  did pendulum swing thingy
to determine what to revise for his history exam
and  lo and behold that’s exactly what came up in the exam.
That was either well impressive?
Do you think the family staff  were spying on him?


Neway Looking back now,  was that a good thing or bad thing.
don’t like story yarns; prefer bullet point information.

Create motivational rituals

to create a consistent habit:

a) before you begin[ making sure everything is in place - before you begin] ,


b) during [music] or after  the completion of the task
    by promising yourself a treat/ or somat enjoyable / relaxing or fun

c) Compete with yourself - this does not mean self punishing,
    but more along reward penalty plan similar ie
    by promising yourself a treat/ or somat enjoyable /
    relaxing or fun  but being more restrictive or challenging - within reason

Prove someone wrong

alright right this one makes me laugh at the moment ,
 one individual dude whose  blog I do read with reckless abandonment  goes on and on on he how proved some female college in ancient his history wrong… I wonder how many times he done her over in thy mind
yep there are times even I cant be bothered being clear and clean minded

Channel your strongest emotions

your basic instincts and drives- channel them appropriately
 for short periods “only”. if this natural mode you go into ‘cool’
or else for time being skip it for now.

It is; as it should be, entirely your responsibility to regulate  yourself

from being a complete slob  to the other end of the scale overly productive.

The in between's  are for,  you to decide  and persevere  in

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