Friday, 8 August 2014
What Gives ?
was talking to some one , to get over /cope with the stresses in there life , was totally, at the drop of hat, without too much of a thought about the negative consequences take up drinking again as a form not so much of dealing, but to numb down the emotional pain and the buzz it gives , sat there listening this heavy duty listening
[note :in short alcoholic substance key components work similar to morphine within the human body which what is what gives the buzz/ numbs you out.]
neway my first naive thought how about suggesting some of the things i mentioned in my blog,
no ...you get the idea
than i thought does person put everything in that category too weird even ifs its affordable ?
extreme level drinking versus trying something alternative [ no not recreational drugs etc..i know some of you thought it ]
is it down to whether the individual not knowing any differently?
, the right support network, family /friends? just thought about it, role models ?
or that you have the responsibility of loved one to take care of?, hence you literally grit through each hour of each day?
at the end of the day i don't know what eats at you, what causes you sorrow , and what would you bring time and and time again to negative habits that come in the category of destructive
but i do know that as newbies especially if your written off [ say work as an example] our everyday existence is not gona be same as everybody'else s., and it is foolishness to compare.
there are/ will be times, where you can't relate to the working lot and other areas of life why would you make their/ this "standard" or way; yours ?
what i do know is that you are only semi educated/ equipped [ and that's at is best] on how to deal with some of the smalls up and downs of life as well bigger up and downs of life.... there impact is stronger on you..me, us newbies.
binge drinking /recreational bleep bleep. will only bury itself deeper into vibrational human body , the un- dealt with negative emotion in line with mental attitude surrounding it will only create a negative
" magnetic vibration" that may flare up even stronger; the longer you sedate,numb out [that includes medication ].
is trauma of the education system, that bad? hold on a minute it can be , i know this one!
[come to think no need to put an exclamation mark , its not like it somat to be excited about ]
being with a class were you were more or less of the time the odd one out , that i literally befriended few girls/ ended up creating group of girls [left out by other classmates in there groupy gangs ] we were aged 11- right up to 15/6 we; all just all hung and just be,at lunchtime/ breaktime.
do remember making conscious choice at one time that it looked like more accepted in class groupy this was two years into secondary school, that weighed up pro and cons and some the episodes of the" wonder years" came to mind i could be genuinely happy in that 1hour . 15 minutes that was lunch and break or full 6 hours approx of the school day of being this cool and this is not.
i don't regret my choice
by the time one my sibling reached sixth form college, said you know your actually cool here , i am ? that's news
by the time i got round to doing mature classes to learn computing[ true horror stories one button on the keyboard an the computer freezes on you] , one or two incidents pointed out that i may indeed be giving some others an inferiority complex, nah this is un- real
never realised life could go go so down hill
recall a teacher just calling me just saying " here comes bollywood" , ok so i did wear alot of pink and seriously cool pink cap hat [ ok i thought it was cool].
it was incidentally the year the Quan Yin energy came through apparently her ray is pink ( and fuzz is back being odd one/ weird out again)
point and purpose apart from reminiscing do not let the memories of your past expediences be the basis of what you choose learn / relearn, or you don't have what it takes to change
it may even in some areas come down to addressing/ perceiving a few things from a more educated / wiser/ experienced you. ...or yes it was awful , but it does not define me.
ps from last Monday gone, i officially classed myself as procrastinating , so i better do something today your guess as good as mine if did this Friday/ Saturday no doubt, it will tell me when v I publish it :P
ok according to publishing time 8/08/2014 5.30 pacific daylight times . in short Friday
as with all errors, typos , grammar and other faults will be corrected one day , but this is not the day :)